Introduction: As a pastor’s kid who in 2022 had quadruple bypass and then this year (2023) the loss of my stressed mom to ALS, I am compelled to explore the potential connection between spiritual abuse and these debilitating conditions. Drawing insights from Gabor Mate’s “When the Body Says No” (Mate, 2003) and Dr. Bessel van […]
It is really hard to deal with PTSD and heart disease while being estranged from your family. However, I rather deal with physical issues alone if it means I can be free from constant mood swings and anger. I didnt ever expect it to be like this in my 40s. I am not a perfect […]
Yesterday I discovered I have 5 blockages in my heart. My cardiologist and primary care noted that some of my heart disease is from high levels of stress and some of it is from genetics. My cholesterol is like 400 and I had preclampsia during pregnancy. Processing this has been hard to say the […]
The book of Romans says weep with those who weep. It doesnt matter why Corona is ravaging people. It doesnt matter whose fault this pandemic is. This information will not comfort those fighting for their lives or people who have losted love ones. On the flip side, some people have severe anxiety issues or may […]
The #1 personal goal for this year is to establish a morning routine. Gonna look into Jewish & African rituals.
PREFACE So I have insomnia super bad & my fibroids have me in pain, trying to self soothe with some meditating & writing. Here is my thesis about the Corona Virus based on tracking its growth & looking at various outcomes through news, history & predictive analytics graphs. Democracy may die in the darkness like […]
I have alot of guy friends. I play trumpet and very few women do this. When I go to some jam sessions I am often either the only woman instrumentalist or only black woman. So having alot of male collegues is just par for the course. Some folks have a problem with understanding that being […]
1) No one comes between me & my relationship to the Lord 2) Relationship disappointments will NOT cause me to sacrifice my business, health, childern or music 3) I will allow myself to grieve for a day or two through prayer, meditation and tears but only for that long 4) I will passionate pursue balance […]
I LOVE people, but there are things that I sincerely hate. I am documenting this so I know my limits and dont ever want to be accused of being fake. I also want people to be clear they are totally wasting their time trying to change my mind about these things. 1) I HATE weaves. […]